tricks that only acrobats can do

too much "I think" in the same phrase

I'm putting some thoughts that have been in my head here, just like this:

More I look at the picture above and more I think about those old photos in the '90s. 

There use to be these "professional" photographers at the center city that did polaroid photos to the children with stuffed animals (the stuffed animals were of the photographers who were trying to improvise a studio or of the kid) and than other family pictures in a green flowery background; everything was so artificial and you know what, the cherry on the top probably were those 100 volt (fake) smiles. 

Than i think of all the flowers that i have brought my teachers at fist day of school and at teachers day (in Albania teacher's day is celebrated on 7march), I think that the only time a teacher enjoyed my flowers was on my first day of school ever (teacher Elda had such a genuin smile on her face) than the other ones said just "thank you" as it was part of a ritual that you must follow and that is it. 

Then I think of Hannah, because the flowers on this tree have the same color as Hannah. If this was a damn mystic story I may title it "a flower that wants to be a tree".

Than i think of the Tulip girl, of that night spent in the rain between the church and the roads; it was one of those times when I really felt like I did something for someone in need. 

I want to finish my thoughts, with the  memory of buying fresh flowers from the peasants in the streets of the city. 

mute

Note: Phrases where selected by R. R. (if there is no citation than she made them up) 

Monochromatic memories 

"It looks exactly like the picture of the first beer-house in Albania, it was called "Pandes" in Korca where I am from." -Joana Vukatana

"I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want; I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And what do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tons and variations of mental and physical experiences possible in life. And I am horribly limited."-Sylvia Path

Make a wish!

"Contrariwise, if it was so, it might be; and it were so, it would be; but as it isn't, it ain't. That's logic." - Lewis Carroll 

"which road to I take?"- asked Alice

"where do you want to go?"- was the Ceshire cat's response

"I don't know"- she answered 

"Then"-said the cat-"it doesn't matter".- Alice in Wonderland

Jar of memories. 

"Take care of the sens and the sounds will take care of themselves."- Lewis Carroll

Things you miss when you blink

"The work of the eyes is done. Go now and do the heart-work on the images imprisoned within you."- Rainer Maria Rilke   

low definition on a rainy night

 glögg

we had no place where to sleep; there were actually people threading us because of the poor plan on vacationing; "I want to bit the shit out of the organizers of that trip, they showed my daughter such a bad time"; she studied for the literature exam during the trip; they stopped the bus just to have a smoke outside

 I'm going home cause I have to take my bicycle; it's more comfortable to go home at 3am in the middle of the rain while riding my bike. 

we were in 6 in that taxi and fitted, yes ma'am we did 

I said (shouting), my mama didn't tell me "don't smoke cause it's bad for your health but she made it a money problem"; dude I'm trembling she looked to me like she wanted to crucify me; let's go it's a little too late

Chew your own way :P

I have always been a fanatic of chewingum.I perceive chewingum as an anti-stress, if I am chewing gum there is a lower chance that I will bite my finger nails. I also get more focused doing someother thing meanwhile I chew, but unfortunately it's a bad habit. 

This a collage of pictures of a girl chewing gum and me being " a creep" and taking pictures of her meanwhile she chewed and chewed. 

53 sec video done back at the times! 

I wanted to give a feeling of anguish, absurd and  monotony. 

there is a Pattern there to follow

(I actually watched live the Band of Skulls two months ago, soon a blog post about that experience ;) )

nothing is going to save you from the 666!

Hannah

It's been less than three days that Hannah is home.
Hannah is my new flower and weirdly enough I tend to give names to my flowers.
Since November 2011, when I firstly moved into this new house, I hadn't bought any flowers so it was a great joy for me to have a new plant member in my home.

It's been sunny and warm these days, which stimulated a bloom of Hannah's pink/fuchsia flowers. I hadn't had any free time to buy Hannah a good vase and some more fertilizer, will do it tomorrow morning. I have used spinach broth to feed her, because it has more proteins and vitamins than water; I actually do a little bit of fresh water in the morning and a bit of spinach broth in the evening.

I will dedicate some blog posts (here and there) to the life of Hannah and the things that come into my mind while staying in the presence of Hannah (people have God, I have flowers/tea cups with tea or whatever is there and gives me happiness).
My room mates also see Hannah as a challenge for me or rather let's say they challenged me to take care of Hannah and to not let her drain to death (I'm a really messy person that's why for my flat mates was really easy to come up with such a challenge.)

Later that day:
I went out for a walk and I also bought a vase and some fertilizer for the flower.